Dare to dream passionately

2010-07-04T03:20:00.000-07:00

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Doubting ?

2010-06-20T08:32:00.000-07:00

I am starting to doubt who i am .. what i was .. and where i am heading...Somehow i feel in a depressed mode again suddenly ... just aprubtly, my mood just went down again ....

Maybe it was due to that incident...
maybe not
maybe it is my own personal stuff
maybe i am abit sensitive...

but i just wan to say .....

"GET AWAY FROM US OK.."

hope in my life...

I will never See you !

3 min of posting

2010-06-19T08:42:00.000-07:00

ok 3 minutes of posting before i went to my smelly bed... haha ... ok 2 minutes now .... anyway , my holiday is finally here alr ... so fast but u know what monday and friday need to head back to school.. what the hell.. i am sooooooo sian to hear tt from the horse mouth.... :(

missed my piggy so much alr ..... busy with ndp.... cannot disturb wor... recently we nv really quarrel .. because we dont really talk alot of phone now ... one min more. ... so anyway, i am gg to enjoy this weekend... den weekday chiong again.. ok 11.45 pm now ... good night

pissing off day..

2010-06-06T05:50:00.000-07:00

Our happy moment !!

today i was possessed by a demon when i got angry .. i was being fuck by my mum and dear .. den i was super angry and pissed .. talk to dear , den an auntie KNS go and knock me near my chest .. really a Fucking bitch man .. i was like "ouch" and stare back... den the stupid bitch stared at me back also .. KNN .. i was so angry i scold her "FUCK YOU" in public! if u knock onto ppl , apologised .. still stared at ppl like i was at fault ... like a fucking bitch ... nowadays , all aunties should be send back to primary school to learn civil moral... fucking think that her Chee BYE old and big can knock onto ppl like nobody business .. i alr registered her auntie face into my mind, one day i see her .. i make sure i fuck her back twice !

seriously when i am not angry, my evil in me is hidden ... but if i am angry, i can become a different person... resorting to violent is possible .. i almost wan to give that auntie a superman kick .. so angry ... you seriously don wanna see me angry because i wont even recognise my own mum and dad... that is somehow true... i always think i am only a thin line to evil side... but my evil side of me will go down in an hour .... normally ..

anyway , unhappy part is over ..

my ds !

2010-06-02T11:45:00.000-07:00

messy right !

finally my ds is done ... but this is only the beginning only... dont be too happy yet .. anyway ... dear dear recently too busy to keep in touch with me ... haha .. nvm , i wait for u till u are free to sms :) haha , anyway to updates my life .. my life been pretty tedious .. have to cope with alot of homework lor .. no choice ... but i will still take a short break ...

i just design my ds thing... onli use 10 min to design onli.. actually my initial design is not this ... my design was a chairs that can be changed to many pattern .. in the end, realise ... it is not logic for it to stand this way ... so i changed my design again and again.. den after that .. i got some inspiration... design le ...realised not my style ... i really dont like... cause it is very rectangular... so i redesign it again.. play with circles... realised my circles are over crowding ... too messy... so i dont like it ... redesign again and again.. my sketches is so messy that i donno if it is considered a sketches or crap... so i get mad with it ... because it is around 1 am that time... and my design is not there ... my style is not there .. get so fed up... ask ade can i die... she say yes .. i pray for u .. lol !!! haha ... so funny ! den i really really get sooooooooooooo PISSED !! i anyhow designed .... somehow.... i make the design i wanted.... easy and simple.. playing with round thing again ... i dont like square... nonono.... i dont have feel for square... or rectangular...

anyway , i missed you.. remember to drink water wor.. love you de da sha gua...! drive carefully with ur tank !

botectnic garden

2010-05-30T01:33:00.000-07:00

randomly for fun.. lol !!
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haha , so today we went to the botecnic garden for free... we went there by bus .. lol... we saw alot of dogs .... all seem to be super thirsty . lol... anyway , let the pictures do the talking ... too tired to write anymore .. lol !

me with the big tree...

my bf become avatar ???? lol

"you should go back ".. lol

he is feeling hot actually .. he buay tahan

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...

hey watch where u are touching

where are u ? dear ? dont hide behind a coconut tree...

you see..... pussy

nice right.... ^^

i like this picture the most ..

the overall view of the botechnic garden ... of course my phone cam suck

Blue flower...... yea!! hmm.. ok

say cheese!

we were blocked... :( oh well

the waterfall !! ^^

the two mandrain duck who loves raisin bread

i wan to photoshop my pimples away.... my face in contact with heat always turn red :'(

changed destination ?!?

2010-05-29T09:15:00.000-07:00

ok , so today in the mornign .. my mum said .. let go Kelong instead of Bali beach............................ =.=

Kelong.......................................

Bali beach

both are sea .. but why is there a big different from the places that i wished to go..... sibei sian... hope Bali beach is the place where i am heading to.................... arggg..

i cant believe

formspring

2010-05-29T08:34:00.000-07:00

ok , so i just added a new function to my blogger.. which is the formspring... you can ask me anything .. lol ! just for the sake of fun..dont ask anything which is too "personal" ... lol.... you can see my answer by clicking the "formspring" ..lol

anyway , tml me and my dear will be going to botechnic garden for a tour... lol.... just for fun... but got to wake up quite early lei... i dunno if i can wake up anot .. all have to depend on dear to call me up now... i am just going to sleep like a log.. argghhhh , tml den i start doing my IC drawing .. or today i start a bit? i really very sian lor .... / . . \ lol..... cause so many thing to draw... anootation already need hours to do.. still got to measure ... sian.... = .=

nvm.. i need to kambatek alr lor .... cannot slack too much.. i become lazy later.. lol.. or am i getting lazy now ? hahahaha ... dont care... ;p

hope tml i can take alot of pictures... i got no camera now lor .. sis bring it to redung.. =.= got to wait... arggghhhh.. or i use dad one lor .. if he willing to lend me la.... sob..

wTH.. teacher ask us to do a Furniture design right ... but they alr have winners !! WAD THE HELL is this .. i think is like kanna cheated ...

http://www.furnituredesigndna.com/fdaward.php

see This .... very .... Fish *

today is the day to peace

2010-05-28T09:10:00.000-07:00

ok , so today i was a little irritated to hear that my whole plan was not going to be turn out as what as i expected. of course , i was quite irritated ... but after a while ... my soft hearted heart take control over me... ya.. i am a soft hearted person... hope my soft hearted heart will have it repay..

so anyway , dear have a thing on his neck.. dunno what was that .. but i know it is getting smaller... dont worry too much dear .. when i help you massage .. i can feel it ... after the night time, your lump is smaller... i guess is because you haven really rest well... dont worry... those that hurts, is nothing.... you see those cancer paitents.... why always at last stage den they realize got cancer??? because the thing spread secretly one... no pain normally la... so dont worry too much ok...you not going to die....

you going to live like a cockroach... alright ...
remember to always drink more water... have enough sleep... like now u should sleep alr.. but still play games .. how to recover.. you wan me to knock your head is it huh!

...
i give you a SUPERMAN punch...

vexed

2010-05-27T09:49:00.000-07:00

so anyway , i am here to blog before i turn in to bed ... i am happy that both of us find a way to communicate with each other better. but as you know, i will control my fiery temper... and dont flare as easily as last time . i know my temper is not very good.. i think all dragon babies temper not so good ... lol .. ok i am not pushing the blame to zodic... just feel that onli... lol ...

ok , so you were touched when you read my blog.. although i didnt know what exactly let u feel so touched... probably because i keep mentioning about you in my blog ... but i hope you must know that if i give you the respect you want, you should give me the respect i need. Because during the phone conversation,you just shoot without considering my feelings... probably you patch because you still like me a little... and you say if we quarrel next time .. you will leave ... and you ask me to considered our rls with you...

why are you always giving me hopes again and again and smashes it without thinking if that thing is fragile or not... i dont know why you will say out this thing to me... but i am human.. please kindly take note of that... i alr try to hold my temper down .. i also dont wan to quarrel ... do u think i feel super satifised after quarrelling with you.. but after your phone conversation, it seem that you are able to live alone happily even if there is no me.... so is my presense important to you ??? or it is only a toy... it is ok to have or don have...

but you called me after that and told me you were too harsh in your words that you used...i am sad of course ... but i am trying not to pick a big fuss over this kind of thing anymore... i want you to understand that in this world... no one can live without who... dont assume that even if you spit at the thing you once loved... the thing will still be there ...

if you and i can change our habit .. that would be better... i just hope you can kick the habit of walking away when you are angry.. i feel very irritated ..

just like how u feel toward me .....

stop

2010-05-26T11:30:00.000-07:00

stop the pain ,

stop the strain

stop it ! stop it !

stop affecting us ! stop ! stop !

i must loosen up..NOW!

studying at japan foodcourt

2010-05-26T04:18:00.001-07:00

today was a good weather... not so hot and humid like last time... the heat is still bearable... today i plug in my ipod and listen to a song repetitive..it is a english song.... that song accompany me from 12 pm to 6 pm.. until it become low batt...nice... wasting battery..

i bought food from the japan courthouse and began to have my breakfast and lunch there ... super nice.. the drink 0.80 cents onli ....

so after that , after my lunch, i settle down and began my second elevation of my kitchen... i know this teacher is very fussy about alot of things ... so even the words, i try to be very straight.... in case she comment.. oh this is too crooked ....and etc.. this IC teacher is good la, she is willing to teach .. but she dont really like noise.. lol ... .different teachers have different needs ... lol ^^

drawing and drawing for so long till i get really very tired ... den i rest and play with my ds and buy a ice cream.... this ice cream even exp than the "gold" ice cream =.= ... how can it be ? but i still buy and eat ... waste money again... but i buy because i know i taking my chinese powder ... medicine ... very bitter... so i guess it is ok... to pamper my tongue.. ^^

anyway , i didnt sms u for a few days from the day you told me you are ensure of our relationship.. i am just giving you time and space to let you see better of yourself .. and give me time to see myself in this relationship .... The days we quarrel can be make into a encyclopedia book....

why is our relationship always end up in quarrelling when u are out of NS during weekends ?

feeling suck

2010-05-25T10:00:00.000-07:00

recenty all my posts has been super negative.. sorry about that .. i am going through the process of emo-ing... i cant really focus because there is a question over my head ... i try to plug out the problem but it seem to be stucked there ... i am currently feeling so suck right now .... tml i be going to yishun to study .. guess i need to be surrounded by a group of strangers to give me the encouragement to carry on with my work... Strangers are really miracle... they seem to have noticed that you are sad but they wont ask question... they just walk past you and that it.. i like being a stranger to other person... maybe he / she is feeling sad , a invisible soul will be there to give her/him the support..

i have no mood to design , draw ... all i did was to stare at the comp 24 hours.. i keep asking mysef :" chris, buck up.. stop thinking " but it seem that my brain dont really listen to me ... so i know one thing for sure.. i cant stay at hm tml.. i know my mind will wander around..

maybe currently you are ensure of our relationship, but i can tell u from my perspective.. ur feeling for me has changed ... i know ... it is just that i dont say out .. i keep seeking your attention by quarrelling with you... wanted your hugs so much but seem that perhapes you and i have already grown up... we see different things.. develop different mindsets...

Right now , i am confused also ... by your confused... i am not putting words in your mouth..but seriously , be true to yourself.. be fair to me and you.. am i only your love or become your habit? you should give me fairness and equality... because right now, i realized love is empty...

last time. i used to believe love does exist even it is invisible.. am i wrong this time ?

能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉
说好陪我到老永恒往哪里找 ?

nothing to be fear about

2010-05-25T06:18:00.000-07:00

right now , i am simply pretty calm in most of the things. I might be a little bit jumpy, but inside me i knew the answer. The answer was simple yet complicated . No matter what, i will be facing the world in a positive attitude... I dont really care what the world will changed to... but i cared what i have now ...

compare to african babies , i am considered quite fortunate... i shouldnt be complaining every single thing... but as u know , life is short.... i dont have time to handle thing which is beyond my control. Probably , after this , i tend to wise up and tend to think more than usual ...i am not going to cared about what will be happening.. but no matter what the changes is, i will accept it graciously... Thank for all these years you have been taking care of me..

i move to my goal and dream..... i should pull up my socks and shouldnt keep emoing anymore... there is nothing to be fear about when the obstacles is infront of you... work hard , study hard chris!

my fav song to accompany me during my trip home :

2010-05-21T08:49:00.000-07:00

Welcome to my new singlehood life :/

Answer

2010-05-21T07:26:00.000-07:00

I am waiting for your answer.
No mood for anything now..
Haiz..

my first 3d max blue chair ..

2010-05-20T20:11:00.000-07:00

yea .. i am so happy that i got my first 3d max blue chair done and uploaded ... !! lol

but our teacher still want us to do another sofa... diao.. now is 2 seat sofa... got to get cracking now ... LOL

TaTa ~~ !! ^^

2010-05-19T09:19:00.000-07:00

i met so many people today without purposly meet up. It was so weird... today i plan to like go yishun around one pm to study and do my stuff quiety at japan courthouse.. because there got my fav sushi, fav place, fav env, and fav music... i seem to be very focused whenever i am there ... at home so hot , i dont like to study .. plus got TV... it make me feel very slack like hell ... LOL !!

so i force myself to wake up... play my ds dogs for a while den go bath ... den i start my journey to the japan courthouse... suddenly i heard some one calling me ... "chris chris chris" den i start to scan the area... oh.. lol .. i saw Eugene, Adeline and Bill... they were eating there ... lol ... fated to meet ^^ lol... keke ... i ate the curry rice... very very very FULL !! YUMMY !!

Den after that they are about to go off, i ate finished and started my plan A.. my plan A is to study and be focused... no disturb, no picking calls.. nothing .... Den suddenly a Stupid Secondary girl interrupted my plan A !!! Ahhhhh ... she keep moaning in public .. asking his BB not to play games... den i was Like !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can u shut up and Go away... you bimbo .... !!!! Wan go moan , moan in public toilet with ur BB... THere are plenty of handicapped toilet.... So angry...

Den after that, ok .. is about 6 pm... cause i 6 pm meet ah hua... ^^ ... den go pee first .... cause never pee from morning till 6 pm... den meet her... go straight to TPY... Den Guess what ~!!! I saw fir wearing watson clothing and giving out leaflets... den i was quite shock... and walk away... dont feel like hurting his pride ... so me and hua .... walk happily and line up ... den one of the staffs wan to take pic... den all aunties starting to use brouchures to cover face.. say so embarrassed... lol !! i am ok with it ... cause i think this is normal ... i dont find it aunties... hmm... for me la... is ok wad... got promotion of course got ppl lined up.. if not got promotion for what ... LOL

i know ... if my dear go with me.. he sure dont like it ... cause crowd mah .. lol... ^^ so i bring my kakis to go shopping ... LOL ... in the end, i buy lot of essential needs stuffs for hair , masara and lady electric shaver... i don need to use manual.. lol.. ma fan .. lol ... in the end, spend ....

$ secret... not much la... ok la. .. KEKEKEK

hua spend more.. she also tio very shock tt she spend over $200.... i also tio shock... i only a peanut nia... lol... but she buy for her family... i buy for personal ... so i think is ok de ^^ ok la. .. hope to shop again with hua soon... but dont shop alot .... window shopping also can ^^

^^ Happy small life i am having

2010-05-18T05:26:00.000-07:00

i am having a happy small life .. my health is back.. i am not coughing anymore and my lips has fully recover ... Yeah.. i been waiting long for this day.. haha ..

However , School work is piling up..... haiz... siannnnnn

when u are feeling happy and contented , there will be someone or something to throw cold water on your face... to ask you to wait up from your dreams and start working hard... ^^

Tml i am so happy, shu hua ask me out at 6 pm ... meeting her at yishun... Keke ... i plan to go to yishun library .. and do my stuffs there ... got aircon, brain work better... if not i feel very hot coping at home ^^ keke

yummy

2010-05-12T06:35:00.000-07:00

Today i went to national library alone to do my self research because my info wasnt sufficient.. den i go borrow a book and write the notes down as i read... my eyes become soooo tired after that .. den plus somemore... i hungry... so i go down to J.C.o and have some donut.... hmm yummy ... it was so YUMMY and SWEET ... No one can resist the temptation...... Yummy... hahaha den i sit down play my ds until i almost the stage finished... hahahah .... ^^

My beautiful peace of moment...

happy

2010-05-11T19:48:00.000-07:00

today i am very happy becaus i plan to go for a short trip with my dear dear on 26 June .. if he can manage to apply for leave and pei me to the malaysia for one day... mum keep asking .. got overnight stay a not... = = so what if overnight stay... = = but dunno have la .. go see fireflies , obstrict farm...

dunno if it is fun... but $72 per person nett... guess it isnt that expensive after all... haha ... anyway , if u think why i dun wan to go alot of outing with friends is because i am saving up for next yr holiday... cause mum not providing the money.... they ask us to fork the money out by ourself... sis still ok , got work... i poor thing.. got sch, plus got bf ... no much money left... =.= so i got to save ^^ i wanna save about 5 days money.... maybe change about $500 ... to taiwan dollars.. that time i go taiwan... with $500 ... come back only left a few cents ... keke ...this time i go with my sister and parent... confirm no $$$ come back ... haha

i wanna confirm somemore ... if ok ... den i be going to the obstrict farm

I wonder how fireflies look at night :)

wow.. mad woman strikes

2010-05-11T07:08:00.000-07:00

today after school, we went home as usual in a group.. Den out of sudden, when i was crossing the overhead bridge , adeline suddenly asked me to see a girl who is crying so pitifully.... the scenario was like this :there is a white hair guy .. which i think is the girl's boyfriend.. the boyfriend flagged down a taxi for her and ask her to go in ... but suddenly she step back and starts to use her hands to cover her mouth and cry.. den out of a sudden, she scream..and cry... den i was like oh my.... what happen??? =.=

I didnt know what happen but me and adeline got two story mode which seem to match the whole puzzle up..

Adeline story mode was that she think the girl's boyfriend must have make her best friend kanna pregnant so she super devastated and cover her mouth and cry... her story is something like tt...

Mine was like , the boyfriend must have made her pregnant and he claimed that the son should be adorted..... so he went to flag a taxi for her and want to bring her to those black doctor... but the girl was so sad at what he said so she scream and cry ...

basically ... that is what we think only .. lol

but the girl was very "exaggerate" to cry Like this... seriously... unless it happen that one of our story mode come out .. if not i dont really understand what caused her to act like this ...

^^

2010-05-10T07:59:00.000-07:00

keke monday is always blue for me .. because we always study at 6.30 pm... is like.... very sian for me .. but anyway, today dear just told me he cook for me in seoul gargen because i told him no one cook for me today... yeahhh. ..

SEoul Garden !!!! ^^ awaiting for it soon !!!

hey

2010-05-09T09:21:00.000-07:00

you and i we share a part to build up this relationship together . Sometimes i dont find it really fair when u said u are in NS and i have the whole world outside... yes , i am outside but i am not playing around... i am always going to school and go back home after studying ....

i know you are pretty busy so i dont mind u sms me short..
i can bear with loneliness that i have to face because i knew u are in NS .
That is a part i have to share... loneliness...

If you think it is easy to do, try it.

Flaring temper and run away fast is always part of your habit when u are angry with me. How much chances or times can we afford to be like this every weekends? i cant imagine.... Because if u are feeling shortness for breath, the other partner will not be feeling lesser than you. All of us have a limits to everything, just a matter of time when do we say stop....

It is easy to fall in love but difficult to make it last if we continue to be like this. i can see u are almost to the verge of finishing point when you are giving up soon.... my feeling will not be lesser than you. just that sometimes i just keep it down... i dont wanna voice out because everything i say seem to be a target for quarrelling ... i felt meaingless in that way...

anyway... good luck to ur trip in tekong. hope we still last until tt time.

hng

2010-05-06T07:39:00.000-07:00

i wan to complain ...

Dear dear

i sick lei...

sms so short...

laopo angry angry

this sat

u die... i wack ur Pipi...

den force u to drink my chinese bitter medicine.. (evil smile*)

heehee....

i am sick

2010-05-06T03:09:00.000-07:00

today morning , i got a fever... den i eat panadol.... sobsob... after that, i go and see a chinese doctor... since western doctor doesnt work on me... i see a chinese one lor... den ask for one day MC because today didnt go to school :(

ahhh, i hate to miss lesson... but cant help it lor... lucky i didnt go school.. because i got a fever around afternoon and i got a severe headaches... den during 3 pm, i eat the medicine again... the chinese medicine is the worst power i ever eaten................. so BITTER.... i was like.... "can i eat a ice cream?"

but i know i cant... if not my illness wont recover... so i just sleep sleep sleep... today... i sleep like 12 hours.....after drinking the chinese herb... i always feel sleepy..

but anyway, my headache is gone... fever is down..

but got to take note in the night.. at night ... fever always re-emerged.... :(

i haven buy Iron man 2 tickets.... /..\

hope there is still space left for us... :(

if tml i go sch... i buy the movie ticket also ....

sob sob... and den pay school fees ... :)

down down down :(

2010-05-04T09:19:00.000-07:00

today i dont feel very well... throat starting to get infected...

abit sian... of what my health has been affecting me.

i dont like my health now.. :(

somehow a bit shocked to see a couple break up'

is like i thought they would last through the NS..

Hmmmmmmm.....

Maybe somehow... love isnt that simple after all..

anyway, i am currently sick

is possible ... dont let my throat suffer alot..

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sleepy

2010-05-02T09:44:00.000-07:00

i research until my brain is sleepy alr

i dont feel like carry on already.

i wan to sleep ..

night..

*yawns*

Tml den carry on with my research,

night

haiz

2010-04-28T10:09:00.000-07:00

ya , i do agree that rude people should be handled in an mercilessly way...

But all those violence happened only in Drama

Of course i hope that it doesn't happen to u doing the same thing.

He deserved to be F*** by all of you.

But he dont deserved to be knocked out by your fist.

It dirtied your purest soul.

First, Calm your mind down

Dont let your mind take control of your fist

Win yourself before you lose the ground

I know you are Super Upset with the way he act

But firstly , he doesn't deserved your attention...

Give him a earful with a back of your NS mates supporting behind u ..

And alienated him

Let him know he is super irritating with not a single friend behind him

"He is Too much.."

i Know.

"He is an asshole"

I know.

What he is doing is immature. He should be send back to primary school where he learn Civil and moral.

Beside violence,

there will be alternative methods to win the situation.

You have nothing to lose.

you have supporters, he have none.

You need to Win Yourself.

love you always,

Lou por

stomach wind

2010-04-27T08:42:00.000-07:00

i got stomach wind... keep poo poo....

anyway, bought a new ds from Shann ..

lol... the brain academy v funny..

i got a brain like 54 years old..

mean i left it idle for too long..

lol...

must train it daily ah.. so wont go rusty

lol !

First day in school

2010-04-26T09:04:00.001-07:00

This is the first day in school. and it seems like everything change alot... alot of things changed and everything became very different suddenly. Some people changed and choose to remain silent and focus on their work, some people choose to go against the rebellious side to ease their pain... some remain unchanged, still the bubbly them..

No matter what, this is not important. What matters is, we lived once . and we handle our own destiny. Actually today i didnt have much to post ... because probably i still cant adapt to new semester. Probably i got to get back my soul... to study... there are alot of problems in our life, why are we letting it manipulating own life?

And my relationship problem also, i am not sure why i hang on. Probably, i have to admit one thing , 没那麽简单 ...if you love that person, somehow in relationship.. there were be quarreling...

没那麽简单就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那麽多的背叛
总是不安只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫
[04:48.21]
没那麽简单就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管
感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机舒服窝在沙发里
相爱没有那麽容易每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麽容易才会特别让人著迷
什麽都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心所以最开心曾经
想念最伤心但却最动心的记忆

adeline sing this song above today.. somehow i jus feel like crying after hearing what she sing.. looking at the lyrics and somehow it reflects our stage of relationship... those above which i highlighted are those that make my heart moves...............

esp this sentence: 相爱没有那麽容易每个人有他的脾气

Time table is out

2010-04-23T19:46:00.001-07:00

today my timetable is finally out ... ok.. so like 4 of our classmates left us .. which is su,bowei,melody and yvonne.. i dont understand why yvonne left .. she all passed wad .. haizz.. so sad ... got alot of "China" friends come.......... ok la... some i know who is the china friend... so should be alright... but got one very noisy ... i think is chan ke fan.... i think i know him .. because he is in Julia class also... noisy la him.....always talk cock alot.. =.-

anyway, good news is most of us stay.... the rest i didnt mention stay in our group... i hope year 2 really develop us... as in dont put us in alot of groupwork.... individual .. tt where all of us really learn ... tt is wad i feel ...

anyway ..dear .. just to tell u ..
monday .. i study from 8.30 am to 9.30 pm..... can u believe it ????
Tuesday .. i study from 8.30 am to 5.30 pm
wednesday .. no classes... ( if u wan to take leave, u can consider wednesday..if not, nvm)
Thursday .. i study from 8.30 am to 3.30 pm
Friday .. i study from 8.30 am to 12.30 am

sick

2010-04-23T03:28:00.000-07:00

today when the time with dear has finally come... i am sick...
i have a fever ...
saw a doc and doc dignosed i kanna virus attack

eat medicine.. i dont understand why cant eat kaya bread when sick ....
dont wan to type le... sleepy and sweating ALOT ...

bored life

2010-04-22T09:09:00.000-07:00

I am gg to become the baby above:

i am pretty bored nowadays...

Nothing to do with dear ... haizz... Like very boring ... and still...

Want to find a location ... but somehow... Time is always the main factor that stuck in between us...

very siannnnnn...

Can we find back the times we used to be ? Haiz... Singapore is ................... really ..................... BORING ................

Go anywhere... also cannot ...

haiz...i dont care le la...

No one BOTHERS how i FEEL ...

Fed up with my life

2010-04-21T08:24:00.000-07:00

Me in Avatar????

Okkkkkkkayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy:
feel like swearing all the way to jurong ... why singapore so boring one? sian lor, my this holiday is like everyday work work work... i feel sooo fed up alr... i dont feel like working le lor... feel like slacking for the nx 5 days... everyday almost work.. u can see... my body is there .. my soul is not... haizzz =.=

Anyway, singapore nothing to do... plus dear also like... argggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ... In relationship is like keepping a salmon.... u need to keep it FRESH.. if left overnight, worms will come and eat ... den left rotten.. right boh...

haizzzz.. ok anyway, i bought a DS nitendo from shann .... it is white! YEAH... finally i got myself a game gadget.... if not imagine my life... alr without PSP/xbox/ps3/Ds nitento .. plus computer still cant download games.... bf in Ns .... So Boring life right.... my whole computer is all about ... .3D max, Autocad,photoshop.... and more of this work stuffs... no game...

Plus i recently delete L4D .. cause my C drive crashing ... bo pian... i delete lor ...haha.... finally yeah... stupid dear.. bleahx... i got a DS ... HAHAHA

i can play games i like le .... ^^ thinking of mario... alr ... gg to search for games for DS le ...

hahahha

So happy!!!!!

sisterhood.... :)

2010-04-19T07:32:00.000-07:00

one day trip with hua:

Haha so today i woke up at 7 am .... den i keep playing handphone game until 7.30 am... lol.. den i go change my clothing and settle my shoes .... den take a bus and go out and take bus ... go hua house to meet her and exercise with her ")

hahah..... anyway very funny lor... u know i very crap sia... so we keep talking to each other in the garden for like 0ne hour and plus we keep walking the running track... i think we walk around 4 rounds ... den very tired... den we run one round... LOL ... den end up talking and talking... old friends conversation hard to die... den after that, hua ask me ... later my mum ask we run how many rounds den we say "2 rounds" ... den i tell her... Noooooo.. we run 3 rounds ..... because i run 1.5 round... she run 1.5 round.... add up 3 round... den she say funny la.. play with words.. lol !!!

Den i go home bath :) ok.. den after that i meet her and her malay friend... lol... i tot like will only be like 1- 2 hours... in the end, we end up teaching her around 4 -5 hrs teaching her how to upload pictures in Facebook... LOL !!! oh my god, den in my mind... i was thinking, "hua, u die alr le... next time she is going to trouble you like hell" .... den after like 5.00pm... the malay friend say she need to go off .. fetching her children.... alamak... before she go off , she still tell hua to help her upload next time... LOL

I was LIKE ...... =.= ... Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Hua really have a good heart.... if for me... i think i be like cursing myself to death... lol !!!

Den after that we go shopping a while.... hua go shop at jean accessories ... she tell me she can shop in there for like one hour... i say really boh... she say "ya" ... hahah ... den funny sia.... dear reply say he in bugis... i ask him do what ... he say play girls, where you? i replied "play boys" hnggg.. dont care... den i act angry and call him .. and ask him .... " what you doing now ? where are you ?? .... i saw you hugging a girl at bugis... " he said " what ?" i said:" ya... me and hua was walkin in bugis den i saw you hugging a girl.." den he said :" i haven reach Bugis yet" dennnnnnn ......... Diao.... kanna exposed.... "hahhahahahha"

I was cracking a joke...

Jus 4 a laugh.... Hmm... April Fool ... ok it is over

Den after that , we hungry .. go bakazerie.... oh mine... the cake was ............................................................................................... melting my heart ........................................................ buay tahan......

Haha... den when we abt to go home .... haha hua saw a POSB card.... den give me... i go police and make a report .. hope it will give back to the ownership :)

den head home.... and makan.... :)

Hua, Faster have BB .... Awaiting for a new born BB ... Love YA ! A cheers to our sisterhood ^^..

have a blissful marriage... hope complain of him get lesser.. u two get more "en ai" together with your Hubby...

Monga review

2010-04-18T08:43:00.000-07:00

Today me and my whole family went and watch tis taiwan hottest movie.. which is called the monga. The show is around 2 hours plus but it was a little bit draggy . And The feeling to describe this movie after watching this is speechless. Unfortunately, my family was like yawning away because they dont have the feel for this movie .. it is all about brotherhood stuff... which seems like very fake to them... Now reality is about to eat and survive... this kind of brotherhood stuff should be like alien to them...

But anyway, i agree to certain extent that the show was draggy and a bit dull in some part .... but everything still fit in the picture... the director was good in sound effects and the background music... and i was amazed by the eay he film... really like it....

Taiwan gangsters was like ... okkkkkayyyyyy..

Singapore gangster is like ..... kayyyyyyyy

i especially like one of their english sound track :

I know just how to whisper
And I know just how to cry
I know just where to find the answers
And I know just how to lie
I know just how to fake it
And I know just how to scheme
I know just when to face the truth
And then I know just when to dream

And I know just where to touch you
And I know just what to prove
I know when to pull you closer
And I know when to let you loose
And I know the night is fading
And I know the time's gonna fly
And I'm never gonna tell you
Everything I gotta tell you
But I know I gotta give it a try

And I know the roads to riches
And I know the ways to fame
I know all the rules
And I know how to break 'em
And I always know the name of the game

But I don't know how to leave you
And I'll never let you fall
And I don't know how you do it
Making love out of nothing at all

Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all

Everytime I see you all the rays of the sun
Are streaming through the waves in your hair
And every star in the sky is taking aim at your eyes
Like a spotlight

The beating of my heart is a drum and it's lost
And it's looking for a rhythm like you
You can take the darkness from the pit of the night
And turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright

I've gotta follow it 'cause everything I know
Well it's nothing till I give it to you

I can make the runner stumble
I can make the final block
And I can make every tackle at the sound of the whistle
I can make all the stadiums rock
I can make tonight forever
Or I can make it disappear by the dawn
I can make you every promise that has ever been made
I can make all your demons be gone

But I'm never gonna make it without you
Do you really want to see me crawl
And I'm never gonna make it like you do
Making love out of nothing at all

Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all

Song here :

i am so unlucky today

2010-04-15T09:09:00.000-07:00

today is my worst night mare ..

recently i am not able to turn in well...
even if i slp .. i wake up in the middle of the night
I am not sure why
i keep having horrible dreams... which tired me out ..
My dream is like a battle with my soul... i always feel my soul is fighting with my dream

REcently dream of a woman and a monk... which like chasing after me like hell... scare me out of my wits ... cant sleep.. it been two days .. den after that i still got to work... feel really damn tired alr ... like dragging my body to work... :(

after that , ok... i bang into my dad car because my head wasnt lowered down... is like .... Oh my... it hurt like hell... i feel so much like cursing my dad car to hell... why is the car so short... :(

So angry at the car...
Now at night le, still got some headaches... dono will it affect me anot...
scared blood clot... but think wont...

:(

After that , oh my .. i caught a flu bug ... because recently the weather is sosoooooo bad... i keep sniffing .... oh my.... lack of viatmin C inside mee.. feel so stranded .... in here...

I want to be out of this countries ... buay tahan

Den also friend love problem which needed guiding and probably a listening ears.. dont worry i have two bunny ears .. lol... Jus have to say, all depend on you now. Follow your heart . Let nature take its own course. :) Good luck to you and your choices you have made :)

My thoughts

2010-04-14T20:03:00.000-07:00

Still think that one is enough. :)

I am Posting This Up Randomly

2010-04-04T09:49:00.001-07:00

Recently as all of readers know,

i am still having a very very long holiday.

currently i am working with my parent because one month work is very hard to find nowadays .

they rather find those who is willing to work at least 3 month...

One month nah....

LOL

Anyway, jus wanna updates what i am doing

before all of you think i disappear in this world

Currently,

i am working and doing my own personal stuffs.

Monday, i will of course be working to earn some money.

Tue, i will off work because i got my own thing to do.. i got aerobics of course .

Wed, i will continue working ...

Thurs, Working

Fri... maybe working ..

My working is not very tedious.. because i work ard 1 - 2 pm one .. lol... so i am consider quite free and easy job.. lol

Anyway, just feel that alot of people are changing.

Worst or good?

Up to ppl to judge. :)

Been cutting my own bang because they are long... and i dont trust hairdresser that they will do a good job.. lol... cause if i paid them to cut, i think they cut really really very short... i dont wanna look like a mushroom head.. of course...

i rather DIE ; than looking like a mushroom head lor ...

LOL

Anyway, been watching a blog and find out that there is a 19 yr old girl been exposed of revealing too much intimate pic of her and her bf.. my views is not important. But i guess they know what is private and public in this internet. Everything you post online has to be well taken care of, pic will circulated.. or maybe she is too young to know what is risk... 19 yrs old , still abit immature.. but i guess this is a growing stage that she has to face.

holi... what is that ?

2010-03-17T09:24:00.000-07:00

Ok,

I am having a holiday.

Which mean i am idling around, Well today go to interview for Temp promoters.

But i wasnt selected. Probably alot of ppl are snatching for job lor..

Nvm, i temp work at my dad shop lor..

Very bored with so many holidays... plus is 1.5 month...

Feel like sianing off alr lor ..

:( ...

Bye...

Holiday

2010-03-14T23:16:00.000-07:00

tick tock tick tock... watching the clock ticking away and there i am counting my days goes by... Holiday arrived and i am so boring that i keep sending resume to company but only one replied... ask me to update my NRIC onli... hmm...boring .. hope i get that job.. cya ... soon

It been a long long time since i last posted.

2010-03-06T08:42:00.000-08:00

I was currently busy with my own life that i didnt have the time to update my post. But, During these few months, i seen alot and learn alot from it. I know happiness is not by granted, it slips easily. Once you think that u seen to be in control of the object u have, the more it will slips away.

Anyway, If i am gg to post , i be posting alot of my life. So, i shall make a summary.

I visited my friend, shuhua's wedding. I am contented to see that she is happy and blissful in her marriage. Really contented. During my Sec school, i treat her like a Sister where i can share my sorrow and happiness with her. She is the only one who is able to see through me in a friendship. I am quite surprised that she know how to handle me well, haha... I really like her as a friend. But this kind of friend, is very hard to find now. I know that me and her and drifting away in someway because we didnt contact each other for a very long time. But i still wish to see her happy everyday.. I dont like my bestie cry... so Eric, take good care of her ah... :)

I attend my friend buffet wedding.. really feel so much like sadden suddenly... Jus because, i know she is going to walk another path of her life now. I am a very Emotional person when it come to touching scene. Haha.. No friends of mine i knew will understand me well, except her during seconday days. Even now in poly or BCA Academy, i can admit that there are not many people who i can open up to. Even so, it is onli one or two.

http://jefferykoh.com/ericshuhua/

To share her blessing, please visit the webby abv

One News : Shu hua is Getting Engagement!

2010-02-04T09:18:00.000-08:00

Just wanted to share this joy to all my friends and relatives, anyone who know shuhua ... my secondary bestie ...her engagement day is going to come ...

on 5 march, she is having a engagement buffet ...

I feel really really very happy for her. She has finally found a man whom she can truely rely on. ^^ Hope she will be very happy when her day arrived.. Now i donno what to buy for her engagement and birthday present. ^^

Any ideas ?

^^ ??

Hope she will be v happy forever ! ^^ As for me , engagement and married is still a v long way to go. No plans for all these first. ^^ married ...is onli a certificate... but to all gals, married is a very very important event .

I wish my married will be the most romantic in this world . To do this, bread come first. Practical ah.... ^^ LOL !! but this is me ... !

It a damn cold night

2010-01-21T09:35:00.000-08:00

Today i am still awake is because i take a afternoon nap and now... i cant sleep .... because come tt one is very tiring esp when you lose alot alot of red stuff...

i am studying now...

one word to represent my feeling, : Hope gods see us through...

Bye !

A sense of belonging

2010-01-20T08:50:00.000-08:00

Recently i like 2 sentences which adeline write :

男人说谎，是为了让自己好过。而，女人说谎，是为了让对方好过.....

爱情有时就好比一双喜欢却不适合的高跟鞋。穿了脚痛;扔了心痛。

Those two sentences are really best in expressing gal thoughts :)

2010-01-15T07:26:00.000-08:00

hi everyone, it is chris ..

Well recently , i have been isolating my blog for soooo long until i think pwople might wonder if i am going to throw my blog away.

No, i am not... just that i am quite buzy in BCA until my mind always get sooooo tired everyday...

Haiz... life is getting really stressful... until i got headaches sometimes... tues autocad, 25 got IC test.... haiz.... monday got grading .... for ds... alot od stuffs still not done yet .... i am very depressed ... :( design is my favourite , but it seems to restrict my imagination when i am in school... this time is designing a exhibition hall... it is not going to be easy... i am planning to exhibit international robort.... haha ... seems like a big project.. but donno where should i start... maybe on the size of robot first bah ....

....................

2010-01-06T07:25:00.001-08:00

Nothing to post .... But Too many Hw :( and Model.. i feel very sian....

Why am i still awake ???????

2010-01-05T09:42:00.001-08:00

=.= Not sure ...

But waiting for the glue to dry =.= and see the result... Hmmmm

A words of thoughts 2

2010-01-03T08:58:00.000-08:00

Thank you everyone for showing your concern when i am down. Don worry, the Happy chirpy Chris is still alive, not dead yet. Recently , there are a series of incidents which upset me, but now i think most of the things are solved. Feel very happy that he has put himself in my shoes so that he can understand my situation more. Which i feel quite happy about it.

I try to talk nicely to mum that he will changed rather than last time. Although she was still skeptical, now is really up to him to make the changes. Because the wound is already quite deep, it might takes some time. Also wad you promise me on the bus, i hope you will do it... really scare that as the day passed,u will be back to the square....Because i also need some time to see ur changes . it might be like months or even years , but definitely not days or weeks...

Also , i am very happy to know how important i am in ur heart also... unlike last time, u wont even bother me at all... scolding me everyday.... when i recall, i just somehow feel the cut is still fresh inside me .. so i hope i can see your changes and the promise you made for me.

A word of thoughts

2010-01-02T06:12:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a confusion for me. I didnt know wad should be done, and all i did was to follow my heart. After these two days of real battle, i accept to give him the last chance to show me that he can be a understanding man and a gentleman who treat his girlfriend nicely.

so please cherish your chance. i really do not wished history to repeat itself again. If i feels the hurt again , i will throw the monkey away.

Because u make me understand that love and attitude will changed gradually when the days are passing. Especially in long term R/s , guy will take u for granted. So do not think that guy that sweet to u in the beginning will last in a few years. This is basically what i feel, sorry if i say to hurt u.

let see in a few months or yrs .... my heart is really saddened whenever i think of the past... cant help crying in my heart. Hope this chance i given u will prove me wrong. what i told u on the phone ytd was a fact. The chance is also a fact. But the result is a mystery.

Hope i m not disappointed.

A post specially for you, my dear

2009-12-29T09:16:00.000-08:00

My dear ,

I know how much u sacrifice for me in order to prevent our relationship from turning sour. As to what and how it happens, i will not be posting on my blogger.Thank you for everything you did for me, i know being with me is always like a challenge to you. You are my first and sweetest memories that i ever hold. Nobody has give me such a wonderful day in my last few years until you step in and brighten up my life. I know u always had to choose between me and the one you like to do, and i always know you will try and push away your dream for me. I feel pressure somehow, i dont wanna you to sacrifice for me in order to exchange for my wishes and forsake your dream. i know how stressed you are right now, being in NS , wanted to do your stuffs and me. you have to be dilemma for these 3 things. Dear , we are still young, i sincerely hope from my bottom of my heart that you will go as far in your dreams and i always be there for you in whatever decision you are going to make.

I Love you always . Thanks for the memories.

i will not remove any post or pictures or my email account at all. This is a memories of you and me. If you like mixed martial arts or muai thai, go ahead.

I love you. Hope you will fulfill your dreams soon.

From Hon or maybe christinyn.

Whatever you want to call it, it is only a name.

A girl who will always remember your smile.

God Bless you

Dad n mum.. funny

2009-12-29T06:26:00.000-08:00

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Thanks for the Birthday wishes !

2009-12-27T07:47:00.000-08:00

Plus I need to thanks all folks to wish me a very happy birthday!

i need to thank dear for accompany me to walk with me all this year. Thank for the ginger bread. :)

and i need to thank Val for buying me a perfume which i really really loved ! she know my taste man..lol

and i need to thank Su, to be the third person to wish me on my birthday . And also Asanka to bless me and wish me a happy birthday.

And Mum and Dad and Sis , to wish me 21 birthday with 21 ass beating to represent 21 years old..lol

And On the Facebook,

I need to thank my sec friend, Lee yong an winson.. haha thank.. although we actually dont talk much. but thank for the wishes.

Follow by Adeline, Lirong ,Alice, Thawdar,Yvonne,Simon,Timothy LIm(i dont know him, but i know he super old to become my grandpa) Siti , Andy Chua and my Sis !!!!!

THANK ALL! Wish u all have a nice merry christmas and a happy new year !

My Birthday

2009-12-27T07:26:00.000-08:00

Alright .. i am 21 this year ... Today is my Birthday , just posting wad has been done today..

Basically, nothing much seriously...

ytd dear dear know i be working today at my dad shop...

so he buy me a gingerbread to cheer me up ..

he ask me to do 4 steps before i can eat this gingerbread head,

1) yawn when i wake up

2)Rub my eyes

3) eat the gingerbread head

4)sms to dear when i munching it head

LOL .. and i really did the 4 steps

But i add in one more Step... eat without brushing ...

LOL.. i know my face look a bit fucked up in the morning ..

See i munch away the gingerbread head .. lol

i look really sleepy right, because i slept at 2 am for watching the CHAW online ...

Good show, featuring a man eating wild boar.. lol

Den after that, for dinner, mum and dad treat me for dinner... sis was there too !

The first Dish.. is fish .. i know my phone camera is nt gd .. lol

second dish .. vege ... lol ...

This taste abit like kopi pork ribs..

my phone shaky ... damn... actually is not only 3 prawns .. is i keep eating 1st, 2nd , 3rd dishes until i forgotten about the 4th dish... sobb....

The dinner was nice and economical... total only $48... cheap right n plus full full stomach.. lol

Merry Christmas Everyone

2009-12-24T09:05:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone, Merry Christmas.. So How do you spend your Christmas eve ?mine was simple, i go to my bf house and i teach him how to ride a bicycle . after that i accompanied till around 6.30pm before i go off. My dad fetch me ard 7 pm and travel to my third uncle house for a gathering.

Ok, when we reach, they were singing jesus song, alamak, i dont know how to sing a song at all. so i just stare blankly at the song sheet and look blank. When the guy was talking abt some jesus stuff, i was practically looking around for food. I was hungry :( Didnt really focus on that guy who talk alot.. lol... because i not v religious type. :)

After that finally dinner arrived ..
OMG....

the Mee was sosososososososos dry like hell.
the nugget was cold
the chicken nugget was not nice
and the fishball was not bouncy

practically ... =.= disappointed .

But anyway , i took some pictures before i go to third uncle house :)

my outfit... look dull... but neverthless... less is more.. LOL

Looking Cool ><>

Me with spec again.. Cheers !

hahaha... tongue out !!! :)

Finally , a Hunk man to spice up the christmas atmostphere . lol

hahah Thumb up for my hunkie !!

One Post for AVATAR

2009-12-22T00:19:00.000-08:00

Exclusive for Avatar !

Everybody i really wan to say that Avatar is the best Flim ever. Regardless, of bodyguard and assassinate and the sword warrior which the director claimed that they took years to complete the filming, their works cant be compared to AVATAR . Seriously, When i watched the movie, i feel myself getting sucked inside the flim and the fact that it is only 2D . What happens if i watched 3D? really feel the urge to catch it in 3D .... because i don know how to say, but it is a feeling that is out of the world.

I really want to catch 3D with dear ... ^^

Anyway, i love Avatar Theme Song <>

The song is beautiful,

The story is beautiful

The character is beautiful

The movie is beautiful

The love is beautiful

And Nevertheless,

The crying for the loss is beautiful. You can feel the pain.

will i be the happy CHRIS again ?

2009-12-21T06:37:00.001-08:00
i hate my Little Fucking Life.
I Had the Most Fucking dinner in my mouth.

Today is a Really bad day for me. Ok first, my mum in the morning quarrel with me . den at night she come home, she throw away my Fucking "Plastic Bag" ! and started scolding me and said sarcastic words at mi... i was like .... very very pissed... actually my good was good after watching the AVATAR..... den At night... oh god... really !!!!!

Mum said i hold up her work because i didnt go down n help. =.= and her attitude was super bad. say i am the wolves.... a boy crying "the wolves are coming" ... i don know la... i am just not in the right mood... and before my mum quarrel with me at night, my bf quarrel with me in sms.....

3 fucking things are lined up in a ROW !

morning,
MUM
Evening,
Boyfriend
Night,
MUM

I really feel that i m not going to enjoy my holidays ! Because i am v v v v v v v v v pissed by all these situations ! =.=

So friends,
if i didnt sound too happy on phone/sms, please ignore me.
Cause recently my life is very Fucked up and Haiz... i donno la...
Just wasnt the Happy me anymore.

Will i be able to find my real self ? will i ever get happy again after all these shit i am facing? Recently, i feel so stress and tense after all those unhappiness thing with my boyfriend. but everything was ok for a while, but i didnt really like ppl to suspect me like i am doing something wrong when i didnt.

And interrogate me like a suspect, i am just ..........

SAD /. .\

Because i guess my room feng sui not good???

Haizzzzzzzz....... God from above, if you heard me, give me the strength to endure and carry on with my life.

Merry Xmas

2009-12-16T08:19:00.000-08:00

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Long Time No post

2009-12-15T02:45:00.000-08:00
It been weeks since i post. Haha, yesterday my sis grad with a master degrees . So happy for her. i was late for her grad but i managed to take pictures of taking the grad cert on stage. ^^ So happy. Anyway, maybe my sis will post her pic online at FB.. not very sure. LOL

Anyway , A wish i post for the New year Day.

if anyone spot this BAll , Ok , Tell me alright. Cause This is done by me :)

and before i go to The Hotel, I was taking a train, so i cam myself. :)

LOL!! i look like those "ice-cool" person... but actually i am not

My Baby Recent Pic.. happy ah..

Nx Sun !

2009-12-06T09:19:00.000-08:00
Hi everyone, An announcement to be mean by Me! Nx sun is my dear birthday, haha finally the day is going to come. And we will have one thing in common within this 2 weeks after his birthday. Guess What.. He will be 20 , same age as me. Haha, but it wont last because my birthday is on 27 Dec... and i will turn 21. Haha..

Reaching the Number 2 already.
9 More years before my "market value" will drop from one million to one thousand.
When i reach Number 4, my value will drop until one hundred.
When i reach number 5, my value will drop till ten dollars.
When i reach number 6, my value will turn to cents.
When i reach number 7, i think i will recieve hell notes.. LOL Jus joking.

Anyway , i love my dear dear very deep deep cause he will always the first to make funny faces when i sulk or whatsoever. LOL . Didnt realise our 3 years is finally arrived at 14 Dec. 3 years ! :) cant say very long or very short .

Anyway, i wont think too much in this relationship.. Eg, whether u cheat on me or whatsoever.

I always believed a saying :
Yesterday is the past
Tomorrow is the mystery
Today is the gift.

Therefore, i believed what i have in the present and wont think too much. That is my character. LOL ... I love you with all my might and i hope your character will not change in future. LOL Except .. u have to change a little bit. Which is to Smile :)

Haha... going to be late. i tml got sch. Cya ! on next sun !

2009-12-02T06:33:00.000-08:00
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* CREDITS TO PETER CHOW - CHOW OUTSIDE, MUDAFUCKA!*

Everybody, i need inspiration God. I got the ideas but dont have the wow factor which irritates me. LOL !

Anyway, Sis is with her friend hse nowadays. HaHa.. Den beside, i Got a unlucky thing to said, My bloody phone spoil and i cant find my Warrenty card. F la.... Damn ! Now using my mum phone and use.

I donno how sia. ......

SHIT ! ...

wow. Finally december is here !

2009-12-01T07:52:00.000-08:00
Wad Coming up in This December ? Baby ..

YOUR BIRTHDAY ~! of Course @ 13 December ! Really looking forward to it ! Already know wad i am going to get for my Baby ~! HeeHee ! Dont tell u all first... HeeHee !~~

Beside your Birthday ?

OhhHh... GALS MUST KNOW THIS ! END OF SALE SEASON IS COMING >>>> MEaning AT least 30% to 70 % OFF ... ~! OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD ! HOW TO SURVIVE WITH $400 ???? >< Not Enough ~ !!!

And Then, CHRISTMAS ! Haha .. anyway , this 21st to 27th December is my school break. Going to Help my parent abit... :) They are too Busy. CHRISTMAS ON 25th DEC ~ ! O MY >> CHRISTMAS SALE AGAIN ! Muacks To all sales !!! And of course , my baby also !!! Muacks !!!!

And Then

And Then ~~ My Beloved BIRTHDAY ! 21st Alr... Haha... Time Flies .... So fast gg to be 21 ! Hope i can be with dear u know ! Really Hope ! Praying HARD ~~~!!!!!

Life changes from today

2009-11-21T02:41:00.000-08:00
why did i say life changes from today? no, it is nt because of anything to do with my relationship.
It is because i be having lesson even on saturday.
i really wan to change to morning class already.
i scare if keep doing this, i dont even have time for myself and dear.

=.=

i dunno.

but alas, the saturday teacher is really good.
And to my dear Ps, please take care of your health.
Donation is good for charity but make sure your health is pink.
Eat more tonic that replenish your blood.

dont worry of your face, cause u must trust yourself.
You will always glow like a star. :)

Marksim Concert!

2009-11-19T08:48:00.000-08:00
today me,sis,mum went to see a grand Markism's concert. It was really great and if i were to grade that concert , it would be almost as perfect to 5. The first Part was a bit bored because it was somehow quite long . I was actually opening my eyes den suddenly when i shut my mind, images will flash to my head. The music has the [power] to drag you into the music itself.During the second part, It was like every time he hit the piano keys hard, my heart almost missed the beat. The feeling is so indescribable . i really love it alot. ..tired..............

The benefits of avocado hair mask

2009-11-14T06:16:00.000-08:00
Hey ya, i just try my avocado hair mask. At first, when u applied it .. the feelings feel really coarse. You will feel that ur hair is hardening. Dont be afraid alright , this is very normal because u added an egg yolk.. remember ? LOL ! therefore, you will feel your hair is very coarse after applying it.. LOL

Anyway, i see results!
It is really good after you wash it away.. ! you can feel the softness, definitely going to try it again once or twice a week. LOL

Anyway, i changed my permission from public readers to invited readers for some reasons. Recently, i just feel my blog has been getting really dirty by someone who left their prints which pissed me away.

You know who is it. Dont have to explain anymore.

Houseflies.

First time using my dad broadband to blog...

2009-11-09T00:22:00.001-08:00
Like i say , i am using my dad broadband to blog my post.. haha... i just paint all the banners now is just waiting for it to dry nia .. die la, i wanna start school... mum like wanna drag me from mon to fri.... i feel like very tired... yesterday bet with dear tt i give him a morning at 4 am. he dont believe wor, den i 4 am really call him up... but he answered my call and go back to slp till 5 am... see waste my effort of giving u morning call... i think i really need to give you a SUPER LASER Alarm clock... ! if you didnt wake up , the alarm clock with laser your butt... lol!

Anyway, recently done my first Do it myself Face THREADING ... to remove my facial hair ... Wa liao eh... Really super pain... But for Beauty, i bear with the pain ..

Den today i bought a Avocado. Prepare to create a Economic and effective method for your hair to become soft and shiny.. It is really Really cheap.

Ingredients you Need are:
1) Half of the Avocado
2)one egg yolk - (We dont want the eye white)
3)One teaspoon of olivia Oil

Below is the Video To create your Avcodo Hair Mask.. !

Benefits:

Avocado has been used for many centuries to treat the skin and hair thanks to its high source of beneficial oils. Hairwise; it restores shine, repairs damaged ends & softens the hair.

Eggyolk is high in protein to strengthen & repair hair and this is the ingredient that seals in the moisture.

Olive oil works as a deep conditioner that hydrates & moisturises our hair for glossiness

if your head is super super dry, Try it continously for 7 days . Den follow by twice a week to protect your head.

HaHa.... Try it .. It really works!

First time using my dad broadband to blog...

2009-11-09T00:22:00.000-08:00

Noise Level is going to high

2009-11-08T04:24:00.000-08:00
Wah Lao... really have to write here to vent my temper out . Mum keep pestering me to go to her room when i enjoy staying in my room to play my facebook. Keep Forcing me to do wad she like... I DONT LIKE ~!!! I wan to stay in my Room !!! To enjoy a moment of silence. I just stick my ass in my room bed ... !!! Dont care... Tell her i dont wan to move alr ...

Keep asking me what happen to me and dear ... Keep pestering me like shit .. Tell her nothing alr , still ask ask ask ... Very irritating pest ... like houseflies.!!!!

My mood was ok de... until she disturb my mood... sian.... really wan to find a part time night job... :(

Shopping SHopping SHOPPING !

2009-11-05T03:36:00.000-08:00
Today Finally is the day for shopping .. But ke lian la... shop all alone.. At first , my mum shop with me at northpoint.. haha.... i buy Alot of clothings.. which includes me and my sis... mum buy two pieces for sis.. both i choose ... Hahaha.... confirm nice de lor ... lol... den i shop at Amk Alone.... buy 4 pieces of clothing... total cost :$30 ... cheap right ... LOL !

Den go orchard walk walk ... and den suddenly feel super bored ...

so GO HOME ....

Today .. Rotting day

2009-11-03T06:41:00.000-08:00
Today is a super rottting day. Nothing interesting in my life lor ... sian.. think tomorrow go to work with mum better . time pass faster bah .. and i in need of $ desperately. Anyway today accompany my sister to Northpoint to buy facial products. Compare prices at Body Shop and face shop, Think i still prefer face shop. The Pore tightening for dear is in slightly bigger container.. around $27 ... Den i was tempted to buy the cover up ... facial product... i tell myself not to buy .. but i fail sia... still buy.. LOL .. anyway , it is to cover the holes when i go out .. make my hole look smoother.. Think dear dont need this cause he is in Ns.. no need for this

Oh ya.. and about the protein Powder at GNC.. alamak... There is so many brands and i dont know what to choose at all... super confused .. but the container is super big... but then i ask what is the range of the prices and the side effects .. They said around 100 plus .. what the.. and if u cant take it ... u may keep going to toilet to clear ur bowels lot of time... Seem to me like it sounds like food poisioning ... LOL ... Dont want buy la... like waste money.. i rather u go exercising la... dont anyhow spend money and let your mum worried for your health... and wad u consumed... later she will keep asking and asking ... den u find her nagging.... what for right ... ? LOL

Dont bothered eating this product... no use...

Exercising is the best you know... okok... gtg

Bad Day or Good Day??

2009-11-02T09:19:00.000-08:00
Haha, Been lazy to update my life ever since my holiday starts .. because i think no one bothered to read so i dont really update. ^^ Anyway , i got a plan in my mind. I wanna learn to drive a CAR now .. My motivation was driven by "Future" i think. Anyway , a car would be more convenience rather i dont know anything :) I dont understand why i wanna learn Car but i think i am more or less motivation by Dear parent. Cause my parent didnt expect anything from me at all, didnt encourage me to learn car or anything... den see dear mum keep asking him to learn car which kinda lighted up my fire to start learning car.

As for the Car Payment, i also dunno lei... if i really no money to learn car, den i ask from dad or hope 3308 will strike when i buy 4D.. LOL ! Hey, 3308 is my number ah... dont think of buying 3308.. LOL...

Den my silly Dear today told me he wanna buy facial product to make his face hole smaller.. cause i don know why his face hole getting bigger.. and is ALOT.. so i think is the Camo ... he put on his face... Poor Dear... Aiyo... But better than me... with a tons of pimples that stuck on my face... want to get rid also cant.. have to use concealer to cover my pimples when i go out ... :( Damn ... and wait for recovery... Damn

Ok.. and ur protein powder... ask for price and side effects... i help u ask.... How much for consultation ??? how much i get for lobe runner... lol.... ???????

And today i got a unlucky day...
Also too embarrassed to say it out =.=

Haha... think my dear and family know ok alr...

HeeHee... cause super embarrassed ... /. .\

Where does the problem Lies ?

2009-11-01T07:13:00.000-08:00
I am not sure where does the problem lies with us anymore. To Dear, it seems that as time pass us by, Our common interests are getting lesser and lesser .. making less topic for us to engage on. There aint any interesting thing evolve around us. Kinda sad. /. .\

Because one thing is, dear interests and hobbies are too far different from mine. He likes to fight while i dont. I dont like martial arts where i must throw the opponents around. It look kinda violence to me since i am a female. He has little hobbies and none of our hobbies actually match. I likes games like other guys .. but he like WOW .. which happen so coincidence that i dont Like WOW. I prefer those zombie or Sims games.. I dont like leveling up game.. if u ask me to spend $45 every 2 months to play WOW, i rather save that money and watch movie or eat something good... You know..

Kinda sad to know that our common interests are so pathetic and furthermore he got to go NS.. Which make it worst.I have lots of activities which i like... tons tons n tons... he said his interests did changed but his heart for me has never changed... i hope so.. anyway,time will tell..let nature go for its own course.. I Love my dear dear but i scare our common topics getting lesser.... which lead to more cases of awkward silence. It is really sad to hear a 2 yrs n 10 months plus having awkward silence. Haiz..maybe must find a game both of us like...or other things.. i think we need to explore more.,

If not , I think Our time might not last long.
We need to compromise n accommodate with each other.
I think we need.

Cant sleep... dont know why

2009-10-27T11:43:00.000-07:00
Haiz , don know why today cant sleep .. try to close my eyes but also cant sleep .... now so "early" already still feel energetic... think i got too much energy in my body haven been released... Now i dunno what to do... super boring ... tomorrow go to my dad shop and work lor... tired and sian... my dad shop not enough oxygen for us to take in lor... windows like too small.... den work at my dad shop super super hot... feel like scolding the 4 letter word...

but must work for my dear dear bd present ... HeeHee dont tell you what is it ... but i be saving every paid to buy one for him.... last year present is not good ... this year must be good to celebrate our 3 years ... also... very happy ...

our moment is coming ... ^^ hope he wont get sick in seeing me and my stupid permanent residences ..pimples

Finally Holiday

2009-10-24T07:06:00.000-07:00
Finally today is the day of HOLIDAY !~~ Yea... heehee.. now all my time is committed to dear dear le... so happy you know... miss him so much after we met only twice a week... or sometimes if he got guard duty ... will be once a week... no choice wor.. cause he in NS .. must accept the fact that he is in NS le...

Haha..Anyway... i gt 2 weeks of holiday.. super shiok... wan to go shopping but money is like flowing like water... i wanna work lei.... no money , no shopping ... :( sibei sian lor... /. .\

but anyway, today my mum birthday... go and eat at soup restaurant... i like the soup... very nice.. the food okok la.. lol...

^^ ok.. gtg ... nothing to blog ... lol

stupid daddy

2009-10-20T20:07:00.000-07:00
today my stupid daddy go and make my sister angry because he laugh at my sister at being fat.. now my sister super angry and go to sleep.... my dad wont said sorry to anyone..so he will treat nothing as happened..

walau.. dont feel like studying lei.. i got a headache when i woke up.. so sad... dunno how .. maybe i study a little bit or shall i start tomorrow ah.. haha... depend on my headache bah... like now my head feel super heavy... this sat is my mum bd... i donno what to buy as a gift for her... or not buy ??? i dont know ...

this friday , the tong shi san fen qing is going to end le ... so sad .. let me guess the ending of the show...

qiu jun will be together with diana after he make his mark at the china market....
i haven seen huang jia lan since 6 month... i think she is going to appear very soon ... :) i think is at the ending part... yea.. confirm happy ending ... ^^

too bad... dear u cant see the ending .. lol ... cause u are still in camp.. but i will tell u the ending ^^

today is history test

2009-10-20T04:36:00.000-07:00
Today is history test.. wa lau eh... super stress sia... got 4 days to learn den the tips the teacher gives i think is very little lor... so i restudy lor... sian... but anyway.. i see results ... ^^ guess my history will scored okay ! ^^

yea yea yea

i still left one more paper... COOL yea... i so happy about it.. my sufferings is going to be over le... yea.... until this friday.. i am going to end my suffering... now left Communication skills ... now i am super relazing sia... lol.... watching telvision and playing my cafe world at facebook... cant seem to find any other games to play... sian.. lol....

but i gg shopping after friday.. finally a time to go relax and full time shopping !!!! YEA!!!!

2009-10-18T10:23:00.000-07:00
To my Beloved LaoGong,

After all these years together, Memories are tied strongly together in our heart. Our 2 years and 10 months doesnt go as smoothly as we think, but what is the thing that cling us together? Of course, is love and Responsibility. I understand that my mum has always been a barrier to our relationship and you dont really like it. It is true that it has been quite unfair to you. Probably, this is a test by heaven. I am always very troubled by my mum and you. But anyway, never mind, it is okay. i will carried on with my life with a smile.

The things we did together, i know we wont forget.
The first time we Met.
The first time we Cuddle
The first time we smooch
The First time we Laugh
The first time we Celebrate our First Anniversery
The first time we travel overseas
The first time we walk under a love bridge in taiwan...

All these small little thing seem to appear insignicant now rather than last time. Of course, first time is always the sweetest. Haha... Sometimes, i have a urge to erase all our memories and start all over again. I wan to fill my memories with beautiful moments rather than unhappiness side of our relationship now.

I tell myself to give myself and you a chance to start from where we known each other... Let forget our unhappiness and start all over again. Like my aim is always the same, "Both of us to smile" i feel like cuddling you in a cold place... where i can feel your heartbeat racing and your warmth surrounded me ... The days we meet is getting lesser and i wish the both of us to smile during the little amount of chance gods has given us .

The days where we used to be together is getting lesser. We used to be like in sync twins last tme , cant be seperated. But now, Time has changed. We seem to be separated from our body and each has their own different paths to walk.

Of course no matter where we walked, our starting points will not changed. I will always remember where our starting point is : At temasek poly. As for the future, i dont know if we could be the same. But walking together hands in hands , is a gift for me.

ps,I love you.

i would like to dedicate a song for us.

Saturday & Sunday

2009-10-18T06:17:00.000-07:00
Saturday
Saturday actually i dont feel very happy because of some problems between me and my dear . Really sad in the way he treat me.. actually that time was really my verge of losing myself already ... later i controlled and thing were back to normal... but of course i am still not v happy ... HAIZ .... Cause i feel that thing changed when our communication drops.. but well... i guess thing will be back onto tracks if both of us put our heart in building up this happy relationship back again...

Sunday
of course study at home... lol... den around 5 pm ... went to bishan to eat with dear... bring such a big luggage.. lol.. but anyway , i accompany him to jurong east.. at least the journey he took will be shorter... lol... hope from today onwards, our relationship will be better ... i don want thing to turn ugly... :( just because of miscommunication.. you know.. love you.. cya nx week ...

today is scenography Test

2009-10-16T04:39:00.000-07:00
Lol, when china friends said that the paper is easy... i didnt know to how to react . LOL.. Cause firstly , there will be a moderation , secondly, those who get 80 plus might be a B instead of A. LOL.. but anyway, good to see my friends are all doing great for the examination. :) It doesnt come easy to get this far. :)

Anyway , sceno paper is over...about half of the battle is finally gone. But our nightmare is just above to arrive... HISTORY... ALAMAK ... from sec 1 , i sit for geography paper onli lei.. die die die ... still got to remember those stupid chair designer.. and all are dead le.. i think .. lol.. i dont know la... if they are alive anot.. yawn ... really super tired.. cant stand it

I am so shag today... cause after u realized ur half paper is gone, it means your half burden is gone.. your body seem to be alittle bit relaz.. den the whole system seem to shag... lol.. still planning on my holiday stuff.... it will be bored for my 2 whole weeks .. holiday .... i think i go work abit .. to get some money ... will die if no money under my pillow .. lol

ok.. cya on Tue.. History..

My Nightmare.

Our DDIL Nightmare

today is Building Technology Test

2009-10-14T07:35:00.000-07:00
Wah... Today i eat out with my sister at xin wang. Hahaha.. nice sia .... with a curry chicken rice and curry with a peach tea ... shiok breakfast.. lol

Den at 10.30 am, i go to school le... but the thing is test start at 1.30 pm sia ...lol... lucky i met cingy..she also plan to study in school alone de... den i see her le jiu accompany her to studies.. try to studies in a silent mode ..lol...hope she isnt distracted by me ...lol

den 2.30pm off to examination.. :)

anxious

but lucky i didnt forget anything ^^
after i out of exam hall.. i gather around with friends and discuss answer..
and den i heard alot of china and mymmar friends copying sia
all sort od stunts which are new to me..
but alot are people are caught

lol !!

Ok...
i recieved a Temasek Poly Letter .... Asking me to attend a award ceremony.
Diao... Still Involve in Temasek Polytechic sia..

Geting Award For Excellence presentation Ceremony 2009
Congratulations! your child , Ng Hui Zhen,has Won the Merit Award in E-nnovative Contest ..

Ok... i think is the year 3 .... Attachment prototype...

ok.. held at 6 NOV (Fri) - 3pm

Dunno dear got anot ? if got the cert... maybe he be excused for the NS ... on Friday .. yea... hope dear got it :)

Going to chiong now ! Study !

today is Account Test

2009-10-12T05:09:00.000-07:00
Oh my, Today is account test ... starting at 9.30 am... so anxious but i keep telling myself to be calm if no i will not be able to recall all those i memories .. :D lol

ah.. i already plan my 2 weeks of holiday alr. I hoh, spend 2-3 days shopping .. den 2 days working at my dad shop.. den sat and sun accompany my ke ai de dear dear lao gong.. missing him now le lor .. aiyo.. dont feel like studying sia... very tired ... plan to study tml lei.. haizzz. study later la... lol... now let me recover my strength :)

hahaha... i planning to buy a xbox game....
MINI NIJIA
i check out at AMK today for holiday game...

i think one game can last me for 2 weeks .. lol ^^

Feel like vomiting

2009-10-10T08:14:00.000-07:00
I think i am a bit sick...
i got the feeling of vomiting ..
i don know why...
maybe see a gross video just now...
i think i got the urge .. to vomit ...

=.= sob.. .god, please let me get rid of that disgusting video in my head... i cant stand it any longer.. i am blurting the food... die die die ...

ALA ...
Buddhism
Christian

SAVE ME !!!!!

Is there a Word To describe the pain?

2009-10-08T06:48:00.000-07:00
Today is a Fucking Day and i can Tell you It really isnt my day. But anyway, Me n a group of my friends were studying in library.. New library super shiok... ^^ Nice ambience .. i like it :) Somehow, it is better than Tp... In Tp, it is like Super noisy and there will be no space left lor .. :D In BCA, Yea, Nice table, Nice furniture.. Nice People And Nice Teachers.. Then today mum teng happen to see us so hardworking study ... den she smile and ask us to work hard.. hahaha... ^^ LOL

Den After that ... Study finish le... go home.. den go bishan... and i help me sis to borrow her lib book..sian lei... find so long for the book ... :(

YO Sister. BEtter reward me With EBO SUSHI ! if not i kill you ! LOL ..
miss you dear.. i wanna pinch ur big chubby face when u are back ..

HAHAHHA!!!~~~

Stress

2009-09-29T09:51:00.000-07:00
It is a really stressful week... i am going to be super tired and busy because my tests is coming soon .. I am getting sick of BT ... Hard to memorise but somehow there is 32 questions to get all in to ur head... feel like dying somehow... :(

Let me think if there is anything interesting today:
Hmm, not really .. but teacher ask me to redo my portfolio.. cause too plain..

And oh ya... I just unconsciously realise that her position as my friend has demoted to the last rank. Not sure of the reason why, But it seems that i am not quite bothered on her changes and attitude . Probably getting sick of everything. Even if she trying to make a scene, i dont bothered to watch it.

I put her name to the last in our History project. i was the one who put her there... not knowing why. probably just feel that it is not fair for her to revise her work.. and we are struggling and fighting for time to pass slowly..and she is happily studying without considering our feelings of studying later.

That is what i think. That why now i am not talking to her much. I am not angry at her..of course not. Just that i dont feel like talking to a emotional woman... quite sensitive sometimes...

Now i just bothered with my thing and study. Will still talk to her but is very simple conversation. i dont hate her .. just .. well .. you know... things cant be forced . Wish her good lucks. and wish Everyone good lucks for the coming exams :)

KAMABATEK !

A day of hardwork

2009-09-27T08:17:00.000-07:00
Today i didnt travel to dear house because i got tons of homework and all have to be completed by next week. I was rushing like hell because it seems to irritate me knowing that i have 2 weeks left before examinations arrive. I was a bit anxious to know what are the tips . Therefore, in order to set my heart to ease, i rush all my projects and finished it without any delaying.

I am a good girl today, i finished all my DP works finally and My history project and now i am revising my BT study notes.Trying to memorise all within 5-6 days . Can i do it.. Yea ! kambatek . everyday 5 questions , u sure can finish studying all de la.. i Trust in myself !

You must do it , chris.. for the sake of answering to yourself and to your age . Well , getting older soon so must not leave myself regretted. i always tell myself this that you cant predict the future but you can grab the present.

Well, i think that alot of people didnt know what teacher wants for the Sceno project. Actually i am not that sure if i am in the right track .. but since what the project done has answered to teacher requirments .. i believed wad i do is correct after all. Anyway , just trust in yourself is the most important.

Like i trust my dear wont play around with woman when i am not around. I have trust in a person completely if i love him, but if i find out he has been deceiving me, i will not trust him anymore.

Now i am memorising for my BT notes.

It seems that i should start my account soon. Never mind,from tomorrow onwards, i cam manipulated my time. I wont be controlled by TIME again . ^^ I am so glad to find the old me. Last time, i used to be lacking of confidence in everything after i rely on my dear too much. Now, i am BACK. The OLD CHRIS IS BACK . actually , my old nickname wasnt CHRIS NG, i was called CHRISTINYN NG. But after some incident, i changed to CHRIS NG to be more masuline and tough in character, of course not in look la. i still look girl girl de .. lol ..

CHRISTINYN NG probably should remain as a part of memories in Temasek Poly. A fresh new me in BCA should be Named as CHRIS NG.

ACtually i have lot of nicknames:
Primary School - Huizhen

Secondary school - Apearl , May den transformed to Christina .. den transformed to Christine

Poly - Changed to Christinyn

BCA - changed to chris

What will i named myself if i go to work? lol.. i am still thinking , but i still like my first letter to be name as 'C' ..

Confidence
Happiness
Rough
Insensitive
Silly

haha...

Changing of a New skin

2009-09-26T10:32:00.000-07:00
For the past week, i said 2 strong words :
"People who shown no respect in love shouldnt love"
"It doesnt matter how slow you are as long as you do not stop"

I like both which i said and i keep saying it to my dear until he hear sick of it. Lol ! today i just went to my dear house and i rested at his house for 15 minutes. Currently sleeping 3-4 hours a day isnt helping to boost my morale of studying. I am feeling so tired lately and my brain isnt clear for memorising my BT . So Sad. Today is super tired , after returning to my home. i been doing the history ... really sick of history.. how i wish history wount end.... /. .\

I dont like history at all.... why studying the past..? i believed we , the new generation will create nore things which are asethically good. i believed the Future, i dont believe the past. Since past is a history, let face the facts to future.

That why i said i hate history. I really dont like that subject. But for the sake of god, i got to do it... sian =.=

i like BT actually, i learn new thing ... for the future.. like green concept.. going green that kind... not studying about all those ancient furniture... why for... aiyo.. waste time sia.. anyway, today dear bought 2 jean and a polo tee.. :) look pretty good on him. I think his face changed to become more mature... now i almost forgot how his used to be hairstyle look like already. i only can recognised him as botak nia... lol !!!

ok la.. i gt to go... DP Time ! :) bye

Updated

2009-09-23T03:24:00.000-07:00
~~1) BT test tomorrow~~
~~2) DP 2 Assignment(still life completed)~~ left 2D drawing floor plan
3) History Project
~~4) CS project - soon~~
5) Sceno Project - halfway
~~6) account - Done~~
7)DP test on 7 oct
8)DS test on 8 Oct
~~9)DS 2 model(completed)~~

New* :
1) Portfolio DS
2) DP assignment 7 - draw floor plan
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Today nobody come to the DP lecture in our group except me. Haha , it sounded pathetic right but actually i go to school also never listened to what teacher said actually. but i just know roughly what he wants den confirm again with cindy . i sit behind the 3 of them, melody, cindy and adeline. Only the 3 of them come ... oh oh oh and plus sandy :)

Lol , den i was busy with my autocad :) the notes are so thick that i could faint easily. After that, I go to canteen and have a drink. i was so thirsty and keep using my saliva to wet my lips ... den after that adeline and sandy saw me and ask me why am i still here . i told them i eat finish the sardine curry puff and my drink den i will go and find them :) They said ok.. den after finish eating , i went to the lounge straightly. i saw adeline , cindy and sandy.. no sign of melody. Oh , den i find out she went home and cook for her family. Guilty, i never done that once.

den we chat chat happily and discuss about the model they made. :)

haha after that , we went home together cause living in the same red line. :)

tata.. den now i am home.. blogging before going to my autocad =.*

Update of my hw progress

2009-09-22T09:36:00.000-07:00
~~1) BT test tomorrow~~
~~2) DP 2 Assignment(still life completed)~~ left 2D drawing floor plan
3) History Project
~~4) CS project - soon~~
5) Sceno Project - halfway
~~6) account - Done~~
7)DP test on 7 oct
8)DS test on 8 Oct
~~9)DS 2 model to be hand up next week tuesday (completed)~~

New* :
1) Portfolio DS
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By the way , my previous post was only for my own personal view. If you cant understand it, that's the best. Because that was my intention.

Currently in dilemma now, dear seem to suffer in there. And besides that , my own problem is that i cant seem to forget the old me in TP. I feel like quitting to solve the current problem. Ya, actually my mind is getting quite emo but this is nothing . Because somehow flashes of my past seem to come back suddenly. And i can feel it, it is somehow dominating my mind and soul. I knew one day there is going to be a problem, therefore i feel that quitting is the best solution i can think of.....

I wan to become the best interior designer working in a big firm with a big project on my hand.Having a group of the best elite under me and decide on the design. Seeing design getting shaped up in a few months of renovation and clients who loved the design i create for them. Basically, Money is not really a big issue but it still play a part. I want to let people realise that interior can be a form of art. Not really that, if you are living in HDB, interior design is irrelevant.

i have tons of dreams and inspirations during my young days .

I dream of becoming a scientist, therefore i put in lots of effort in my Sec 1. I dream of becoming a doctor, therefore i once have a rush to applied to take biology.
I dream of becoming a police woman, therefore i train myself in kickboxing to make myself stronger.
i dream myself being a cartoonist , that why i learn to draw manga at the age of 13.
i dream of being a singer, that why i always sing in my own toilet while bathing.

But i never dream becoming a interior designer. I never once think that interior is important until i step to my friend house. I realise that interior change the mood where u are staying. compare to my friend and my house, my house seem to be a coop. i wan to stick to my dream and pursue my career further. i was once an engineering student, but that was past. I will not forget my experiences i had and the bad day i had endured. The jealousy seem to enclosed the space during my poly days.

i always want to forget my old me and start afresh. but it seem that i cant do it. i cant....if i cant stand it, i might as well begin a new plan and strike it out on my own . :(

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2009-09-22T02:56:00.000-07:00
A diary in different languages :)

안녕, 일기,

오늘 내가 행복한 날이있습니다. 내 두 가지 모델이 선생님 칭찬했고 그녀에게 아주 예뻐요. 물론 잠 안 오는 마지막으로 내 시간을 낭비하기 때문에 아니었 기뻤습니다. 그래서 오늘은 기본적으로 내 그룹 모델을 끝내고 우리는 그저 서로 채팅할 수있습니다. 주위를 보니, 사람들은 그녀의 바쁜 일을 많이 보았다. 재스민 때문에 우리가 그룹 프로젝트를 할 찐하게 매우 초조 같은 기분이야. 난 정말 그녀가 저랑 얘기하고 아니면 나를 세뇌하려고 그녀를 좋아 할겁니다. 난 도망 가라 것입니다. 그녀는 거머리처럼 될 나에게 붙어 보인다. 왜냐하면 그녀가 다른 친구는 정말 여자처럼 여러가지로 생각. 전 잘 모르겠습니다. 하지만 한가지는 나도 알아, 그녀는 바보입니다!

今のところ、私はすべてに最善を尽くすしようとしています。も、細部私は、これ私のプロジェクトで重要になる可能性を逃したことはありません。実際、今、私自身が既にため、私に疲れきっているグループの仕事のほとんどを行うように感じる。 BCAAのが私の研究私に何の独立性はなく、人に頼るよりはないと認識を聞かせてください。後、私の愛するSISPEC、時間が変更された私の実現にあります。彼は、私にとっては、常にこれ以上はいかない。しかし、良いことだiはスーパーウーマンになることを学ぶことができます。この現代社会では実際のスーパーウーマン。私はもう、私は30点に達する前に魅力的な10年間の抱えている私ではない18知っている。私は、有意義な人生ではなくに住んでいる私の日を指折り数えに住みたい。場合は、小さな小さなアリ、理由を傾ける私の目標がありますか？

私は毎日私のBCAAのでは、単にその友達に私はまだそれらの私の保守的なままになります愛しています。まあ、イボンヌ、ジャスミンとユージンのように。ことができるカジュアルな友人ではなく、それらに向けては、閉じてください。限り、私は本当に怒ってるのは本当に顔を向けるがない模様。

たぶん私は簡単だ、私と言うことを学ぶ必要があります私の態度を変更する必要があります謙虚'少しいいえ'は本当に好きだがないものです。実際には、理由は私は私は同じミスを私はTPをの前に行わせるのが怖いです単独で働くのは、この考え方が始まった。私は今、人の周り冗談が、彼女の仕事は非常にも深刻な治療を置いている喜びとユーモラスな小さな女性は午前参照してくださいに私はむしろ私の友人。私は、私の態度の人がしばらくしてイライラを感じるようになると述べたことができます。私はそのような人は、もし彼らは私の標準の最小値を満たしていない場合は、私と一緒にグループ化された、私たちのプロジェクト全体や内容が変更されますです。一部の人が自分の仕事を変更する傲慢だけど、感じることができる私は傾斜が何を望んでは何も受け入れる。だから私は将来の紛争を回避するためのプロジェクトだけをやってみたかった。

私のようなTPをdoesn'tの私の友人は本当にため、私は非常に厄介ですし、それらへの傲慢。私は、BCAAのクラスメートはまだ私の仕事態度だhasn'tと述べたことができます。実際に私の愛する周りに、私は物事はるかに遅い学習を見つける。しかし、私だけの戦いで戦うことを、私は本当にを介してそこに希望のglimspe見るために私の方法を戦うことができます。

*This post is meant to be private*

2009-09-20T10:26:00.000-07:00

currently, i like one of the superstar 5..刘明湘!
Actually she is far away from me, probably around 100000 Km far away from me.. But i still like the maturity in her voice. The way she sing is smooth and pleasant to my ears ...
Ahhh, she is my idol now.. i been supporting her all this while.. keep seeing at her performance everytime.. i have v high expectation from her.. she should be the STAR for superstar 5. :D JIA YOU 刘明湘!

surprise plus hw uncompleted...=.=

2009-09-18T07:28:00.000-07:00
today is a spring surprise for me cause dear actually wait 2 hours for me .. until i get out from school.. suprise ... and more to come... i got a movie invitation from dear to watch "9" with him tomorrow at 7.35 pm.... ^^ YEA ^^

~~1) BT test tomorrow~~
~~2) DP 2 Assignment(still life completed)~~ left 2D drawing floor plan
3) History Project
~~4) CS project - soon~~
5) Sceno Project
6) account - Qns 4 undone.
7)DP test on 7 oct
8)DS test on 8 Oct
~~9)DS 2 model to be hand up next week tuesday (completed)~~

Stress

2009-09-17T02:49:00.000-07:00
Hi Everybody i am back to post my blogger again. It been a long long time since i blog. probably about 5 days ago. I left my blogger on the shelves, poor blogger... i am sorry ..

Alright , anyway , Pk and Ps thanks for all the support you have wrote in my tagboard.. really felt a sense of warmth running in me.. Anyway , a details of my life. Recently , i noticed that i can go back to my shape like last time. I am super sad, i am afraid to be fat .. well, alot of my friends said i am not fat.. but i feel that my arms and thigh are really big.. it isnt proportional on my body .. so sad.. never mind, i guess.. i need only a month to go back to my old shape like last time and be super healthy. :)

Due to my hectic lifestyle, it seem to be like i am going to be crazy soon. Dont feel so much in talking in school because i am super stressed.. as in , if you wan to see the level of my stress, see my hair... it will feel so curvey after a while.. super sad... anyway , let me write down my project and test:

1) BT test tomorrow
2) DP 2 Assignment
3) History Project
4) CS project
5) Sceno Project
6) account - Qns 4 undone.
7)DP test on 7 oct
8)DS test on 8 Oct
9)DS 2 model to be hand up next week tuesday

still counting on...

The day when the earth stood still, probably is a day of eternity break for me .... /. .\ :(

A Letter to Someone whom used to be a Good sister of mine

2009-09-09T04:20:00.000-07:00
Hi ,

i am not sure whether you will read this letter which i written for you. However, these few days i been recalling the days we met, the days we used to do work and the days we had a small bicker. Although, all these moments are short, the impression last in my head. I do not know why things turn ugly and it seems that you treat me as a hi-bye friend. Well, i am okay with it ..since you wan to do thing in this way . "ALONE" is wad you been placing at your mouth since yesterday. I am not angry anymore because i already regarded you as a hi bye friend also from today onward .

since we already ask u to thrash things out and you didnt wan to say anything. I have nothing to say and the conclusion is :" you are trying to isolate yourself because of people influenced"

Singaporeans are easy to mix, just thrash thing out and everything will be fine. But i still hear ALONE at the side of your mouth. I think that's it. i know you are still hiding behind a mask and that wad make you a weird person.

Since you like to be alone, then i shall say : " alright , i shouldnt forced you to be in our group if you dont like our group at all " it is okay. Tomorrow, i will tell all teachers to split the group and your wish which you have been saying all this while will be granted.

Anyway, i dont wish to say anymore about you. It is like wasting my breathe.

BYE

dread today !

2009-09-08T10:14:00.000-07:00
I totally dread monday today , the most suck day i ever had in my life in school.. There is some internal conflict going on between in our group. actually most of the group are having internal conflict already. It is like a BGR ... somehow... love at first sight but can call it off after a few months when you know that person well.. Haiz... me and val seriously super disappointed with her ..why do we have to feel like begging her to do it with us for the project .. if i were her, i will ask people first for paper , hw, project... everything have to tell her ... and she has no initive in asking .. but seriously, i wont help her take any notes or anything for the time being if she is not coming to school. i had enough of it .. really ENOUGH !

I dont own her anything , why the Hell should i do all this shit ? Treating like an accompany tool is bad enough, why the hell should i help her take any notes or anything if she dont appreciate it. Grouping with her is like doing it solo myself, what is the use of grouping... and she dont even feel guilty about it ... i dont own her.. I HAD ENOUGH... since she said :"ALONE IS THE BEST" go on... Go and do it alone.. go and become anti - social ... people are there trying to help her with the best of their ability .. what do we get .. A sickening murmur from her ... and it is bad enough to knock it down... if u wan, come on.... tell us and u do it all alone.. I dont OWN YOU... THIS STUPID GREEN LITTLE WORLD DONT OWN YOU.. dont be so pampered ... to think of that ... living in a different culture, please adapt to the country you are living in... not vice versa.. i know it may sound bad... maybe i am not the right "Bestie" for you.. You can Choose other Bestie in this singapore...seriously i am not joking ...

Dont give us attitude like J... think her eyes super big or what... stare at us hard again, i seriously scream at her... she wad... think her eyes big like CB can stare hard at ppl giving us a hateful look...

i dont understand why J join in our group... but if she continue to join us in every little of our project because u pull her in or wadever.... i am going to just get out from the grp and do it on my own ... i dont OWN ANYONE !!!! i am so getting irritated because firstly.. the model you didnt do anything alr.. ask you to do or help me on wed .. you go and watch MOVIE... CLEVER ... and den thursday you are LATE... ok, FORGET IT .. and the FUCKEST thing is YOU keep saying MY ATTITUDE CHANGED !!! FOCUS ON WORK CAN ANOT...i rather you put in effort with me to do work ... rather than keep telling me how much i changed... do u need me to remind why u come to BCA for ?? i am SERIOUSLY GETTING F UP !!

This MONDAY is super BAD enough ! ok since val bf ask val to talk to you.. i am ok with it ... not happy or anything, say it out ... dont hide behind a mask and smile and pretend nothing has happened can anot.. you make people wonder what is your true mask.. and stop being so CHILDISH to do project when val is away ! Cmon, Can you PLEASE slightly FEEL what she is FEELING ... if ppl do tt to you, will u like it ????!? TREAT PPL AS EQUALLY... CMON! Can you PLEASE JOLLY WELL Think of Other ppl before asking that people to do the same thing with you.. THINK OF PPL POCKET, TIME , ENERGY AND FEELING ...PLEASE THINK THINK THINK! ASKING ME TO ACCOMPANY U TO TAKE A ENG TEST BECAUSE U DON WANNA BE ALONE... CAN U PLS THINK OF ME ANOT ... CAN A NOT... THINK HOW I FEEL ... I FEEL LIKE AN ACCOMPANY TOOL... WHEN YOUR BF IS AROUND, YOU JUST GO OUT WITH UR BF... IF YOUR BF IS NOT ARD, U STICK WITH ME... ASKING U GO OUT TO EAT WITH US... YOU REJECTED EVERY OFFER...ISNT YOUR DOING MAKE ME FEEL LIKE AN "ACCOMPANY TOOL"???? WAD ARE U DOING??? WAKE UP... IN THIS SOCIETY, YOU HAVE TO MATURED AND THINK ! YOU CANT TAKE SCHOOL AS YOUR HOME... WITH EVERYONE PROTECTING YOU... YOU ARE IN THE JUNGLE... BEING THROWN IN THERE... HOW ARE YOU GOING TO SURVIVE ?? HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT OF THAT ??

I GUESS I CANT BE YOUR ANGEL. PLEASE LOOK FOR ANOTHER ANGEL TO BE YOUR ANGEL. BYE. LET JUST BE FRIEND IF YOU OPEN YOUR HEART TO LET US IN. IF NOT, I GUESS , I HAVE TO PUT A FULLSTOP TO IT.

BYE.

ps3 is like adopting a baby

2009-09-07T04:04:00.000-07:00
i really cant imagine spending at least 500 dollars on a PS3 and some games .. Jus forget about the TV first .. lol.. cant afford it .. :( Lol.. mean i gt to save alot.. plan to buy one ps3 for him for his birthday..but i dunno i can make it till his bd anot .. i am trying to spend lesser and scrimp on his PS3 .. haha.. alot of my male friends said.. ur bf is so lucky...lol... :)

or should i say, finding a soul mate who will aways love u in his bottom of his heart isnt easy. it is easy to love a person in one min, but harder to last for eternity. i know my dear is the person for me.. :) buying something for your loves one is like loving him in another way... or another word to replace "pamper" :) All my friends are supporting me to buy one ps3 for him. Actually buying ps3 for him make me think very long .. but i know all guys need entertainment de mah.. if keep asking him to accompany me go out shopping , he will feel sian one day .. so might as well... sometimes stay hm and play or something go out for shopping... One stone kill 2 birds .. den he wont keep going out also ...i rather he stay at hm at night than gg to those pubs area if his buddies wan drag him there... i kill him if he go.. dunno lei, normally i don like to go those noisy n smoky place... so he cant go also ... heehee... who ask him to stick with me lor..

lol~!

so today ... whooo... i save $2 because i buy the Water bottle at guardian at $5.50... but but but .... there is more to come .. because mum and dad buy the same 4D number and both strike .... OMG ..!! I get $100 as bonus !!!!

Keep it in my saving too .. so now ...
$470
-$10
-$2
-100
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$ 358
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UHOO !!!! I need to save $358.. nearer to my goal now ... hope mum and dad strike sia.. LOL

today .. dunno lei

2009-09-04T08:50:00.000-07:00
today is a dunno lei lor... Maybe i should written it in a profound way where not many people will understand. I am once glad to be one of your listening ears for you to hold on further. But now i do realise that what i have been doing isnt worth a cents at all. If you are disappointed with people around you, to be frankly speaking , i am also disappointed with the situation now. Friends can be like a glass, so fragile. Once it break, it may be mended but took a long time . I Always Find it hard to explain all this to you because i knew that you are not as tough as we are. I know your character too well, you didnt like to be critise by any people.... I didnt wanna comment much on you because like i say, you are not as tough as singaporean.

People changes, yup i admit i change. But i change myself to be more attentive in class after i got the pressure from the scholarship. I wanna maintain my GPA to 3.5 this sem so that i could continue the scholarship next 2 yrs. I always wanted to tell u this, but why on earth did i hold back my words ? Why ? i didnt understand myself at all.

I wanted to tell you that it isnt that i didnt like to go to your house . However, i am saving money now for other purposes . Going to your house need time and energy and money . After school and go to ur house is tiring for me. I have no more energy after lesson and transportation cost are quite costly also.. I simply have no idea when you are not happy with me. I know you always come to school with a fake smile and bring a heavy heart to school . i wanted to tell you to become independent. Whenever , i tried to speak up, something hold me back again .. I realised that i have no position to tell you off because i am not 100 % independent myself too. But at least, wad the basic thing to do with friends is to Talk and communicate . If maintaining a non verbal communicate, how to know you more? . I am an easy going person to mix with, maybe that is the reason why i am comfortable to you last time.

I am disappointed with the attitude you have gaven me in your work :( Truely disappointed .. i am disappointed to hear ur murmur... "Not a Friend of mine anymore" i dont know what u trying to mean , but those words that come out from your mouth stabbed my heart.

I am DISAPPOINTED. If you dont treat me like a friend, why bother putting your mask on and smile like nothing has happened ? When thing is changing .. i try to help you... in your work... but giving me that murmur comment doesnt sound an encouragement to me...

:(

Free Day :)

2009-09-03T07:58:00.000-07:00
Today is a Free load day cause most of the tests are gone... but the main exam are coming on the oct ... so anxious lor .. sob .. so many thing to study ... ahh.. BCA Academy so weird lor .. like Fill in the blanks... not my style lei... i rather those short or long question lei...

lol... Today the model is finally done le... but somehow i feel a bit disappointed with some factors which i am facing using the making of model.. Dont feel like saying it out in blogger... As long as i know jiu can le... I hope things can be like first month.. Have Fun , talk together all this ... but now as we seen each other mask thoroughly, it seem harder to be our usual self now. We tend to hide in shell and provide a shield to defend ourselves ... haizzz.. nvm la... dont talk about all this sad sad thing

Now i missed my dear dear farting sound alr ... sob sob... last time he so gentleman , dont fart in front of me .. now... wahhh ... pu pu pu pu ~~ lol ... so funny ... i wan to hear it again... but please ... dont give me those smelly smelly one lor ... lol

^^ heehee... faster come out tml... miss u alot ... X(

today super unlucky lor

2009-09-02T09:15:00.000-07:00
today actually i should have attend my class one de, but at around 10 am.. i heard my dad shout... he scream at his top of his voice to see who is the idiot who put the spec on the floor... den i knew that it was my spec because it is too obvious that only i use his toilet and bath... i look at my daddy and was so fumed that i didnt speak any words out... i was totally quite pissed and i go back and paint my model again.. i scare i scream at him also... because to a high degrees woman.. no spec mean half blind... and i dread this feelings ...

After that dad compensate by buying a frame to make up for it.. cause $38 ... den i tell dad tt he is lucky... lol.... alothough spec was changed, my image is almost the same ... dont worry la... plan to buy one more spec for interchangeable... a white spec... now is on the hot list ... cause if break again, i still have a spare lor ... but now ... say say ony la... no money also lor..

Haha and the stupidist thing is my leg is kanna cut and i bleed really alot non stop for 5 min... sob... my hands was filled with blood ... including the floor.. it was stained by my blood alr... sob... i was cut by the door.. it was painful to keep bleeding ... sob ... wad an unlucky day lor ...

Den as i say, my model is done .. !!
TATA .. my sculpture for the garden is done... Name: Rockety (mmm =.=?? not sure of the name also)

Stressed

2009-08-29T08:35:00.000-07:00
i just come up and blog for a while before returning to my hell again. Syudy of sceno is really dumb... and i am even dumber to study it ... :( There is no tips , just study all... it can be quite stressful for students who has lot of projects in their hands... I am super super stress right now, i can get sensitive , touchy , irritated or more ... hot tempered.... i feel insecurity also, somehow dont ask me right when i didnt know the answer myself too.. Somehow if someone who is with me suddenly disappeared, i get stressful and panicked ..i get stressful for the minor thing on earth. That's is not good for psychological...

I dun understand why this is happening to me.. is it because of work load... if i am loaded with money, i gonna feel good... but no... it is WORK!! ..

Forcing lots of chapter into a one head is not easy especially no tips given... if u scare u study this and don study tt, it come out.. how ??? really ... =.=... i dunno how to free myself from stress, i dunno who to turn to when i am stressful... somehow , i am a person who always build a defensive shield for myself.. it isnt easy for a person to break through the defence.. because even if i tell my friends my problems , it wouldnt help me ... cause my character is like tt... i prefer to tell it to my bf , but he is in ns most of the time... tell my pets..they always look and stare at u begging for food... tell parents? No... it isnt my character...

Now home is always so quiet ... me me and just Me.. :'( i dont like home to be too quiet ... because it isnt lively at all....

Who can i turn to ?

With a stressful head of mine, i dont feel like thinking at all... let my head destress to store in information later if possible.. i feel like i am a thumbdrive saving the files in data... but now, the thumbdrive is overload and need to reformat before it can be used again. :'( It is Too LOADED ~!!!